Today I am feeling rather pleased with myself as, despite not running for a few months, I’ve completed a 10k through the beautiful city of York. Having dreaded the the idea of running this distance its a relief to be wearing the finishers t-shirt and holding the medal.
I’ve been running for 20 years, since I was a teenager. I’ve competed lots of races – 5km, 10km, half marathons. Yet despite this, I was really dreading the race today. Instead of spending the past few months doing training runs, I’ve sat on my sofa, lazed around in bed, enjoyed my garden. for 6 months I’ve done everything short of lacing up my trainers and running out of the front door. Suffice to say, this annoyed and frustrated me yet I failed to really do anything about it. With a few days to go until the big race today, I managed 2 gentle 5km jogs around my local area and one painful 10km jog/walk in driving rain and miserable winds.
The main problem has been the disappointment I’ve had in myself. From being super fit and healthy two years ago, I have gained weight and become lazy. A year ago I started to address this by moving to a place where I could spend more time outdoors – ditching the car and cycling to work each day in the fresh air (ie – rain/ice/snow…). Yet I still lacked the motivation to go to a gym or take up regular jogging again. I was kidding myself that I didn’t need to, didn’t enjoy it, didn’t have time … I could go on!
The more annoyed I became at myself, the harder it seemed to become to actually DO anything about it. I was frustrated about how I had lost my fitness. Exercise seemed difficult and the gap between what I could do and what I USED to be able to do seemed unbridgeable. Today I saw a quote that said “Don’t be put off by the time it will take to achieve your goals. The time will pass anyway.” This quote really reasonated with me. It struck a chord. What am I waiting for? Why am I putting it off? The time will pass anyway, so why I don’t I spend some time getting closer to the fitness I used to have?
This week I have decided to make a more permanent change to my attitude. Starting a blog is my own personal diary of the changes I want to make – in fitness, in diet, in lifestyle. By writing them down I hope to keep myself on track and log my progress. At the moment I don’t mind if anyone else reads it or not, it’s for me. If anyone else is interested then that’s a bonus.
i am a teacher, so I am lucky to have weeks in summer where I can spend time working on myself – time that in the rest of the year sometimes feels woefully short. I’m hoping that by laying down some good habits over the next month I will feel fitter and healthier for the new term, which starts in September. Clean eating, regular exercise (running, cycling and hula hooping, as recommended by one of my closest friends!) and balancing my time between work and home. Purposefully and meaningfully, not just shoe-horned in to a spare half hour!
The only way is forward!